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What We hate about cancer - What Cancer Survivors said. Cancer Sucks!

for changing my life
it's so scary and hard on everyone involved
Learning you have terminal cancer, I finally did in 2004/5 after a few years of denial. I hate the this damn disease. It has robbed me. I will not be around to see my kids grow up in life and to enjoy life with my soul mate, partner and spouse who has been with me for 27 long years. I hate the fact this this beast is stealing my strength, mental capabilities, physical abilities, friends and ruining me finances. It is a painful, slow, agonizing and dehumanizing way to leave this world...............in plain eloquent language--- "CANCER SUCKS" and I am in the thick of it.
"It" has control of me.
....the needles!!!!
Absolutely everything
aches, no breast
All it strips away from you.
All of it
All the side effects that come with it
ALL THINGS
at this early point...knowing and having cancer inside of me
Being a burden to my family
Being afraid
Being away from the most important in the world to me
Being nauceous 24/7
Being out of control, loss of my hair
being restricted regarding diet and activities
being scared
Being seen as 'the cancer mom' of three small children.
Being Sick & in Pain
being sick and tired
Being so absent-minded
Being tired and losing my hair
Being told I have it & have 6 Months to live
Besides actually having cancer.....the "so sorry" looks when walking around bald.
Besides being a pain in the butt....I hate how it effects my life and the life of those I love.
Besides the fact that it sucks?
Bone Treatments...OUCH!
Bring inside fear which is the hardest to conquer
Can seem to get rid of it
Can't enjoy my wine man! The stress & distress it brings to the ones I love.
Cancer can change your life, perspective and attitude forever.
Cancer survives is what i have most about it.
changed my life completely
Chemo
Chemo is worse than the cancer itself
Chemotherapy
Constantly waiting: for the next scan, the next labs, the next exam, the next results. Waiting never ends.
Coz it's unpredictable
Don't get me started
Dr. appts
Everybody looks at me like I am dying
Everyithing.
Everything
EVERYTHING !!!
Everything I'm Not A Good Sick Person
everything really
Everything!
everything! >:(
EVERYTHING!!!
everything!!!!!
EVERYTHING, NOTHING TO LIKE
everything.
Everything......
fatigue
fear
fear it instills in me as a caregiver for spouse
fear of the unknown
Fear of the unknown and how it affects my loved ones
feeling bad about being scared
feeling dependent on people and also causing worry to friends and family
Feeling Helpless
Feeling like a victim
Feeling of helplessness
Feeling of helpness
Feeling so weak and unable to do the things I used to do...the slightest avtivity drains me.
feeling tired
Financial, Inconvenience, Anxiety
First thought was being sick from chemo!
Getting Chemo through my veins in my hands! ouch.
Getting that sick and horrible feeling after chemo
Having it
Having to put my life on hold
having to take a semester of of college to stay at home for treatments
Having to think about several times a day. All the reminders!
Health illnesses, diseases post treatment
Hearing "I don't know" from my Dr.
Heh...too many to count. Read my blog. If cornered for an answer, I'd have to say the stinking, never-ending fatigue that the doctors insisted there was no reason for and therefore didn't exist.
Her Mom died of it, and I'm afraid of losing her to it!
Hosting it
How alone it makes you feel
How easily it consumes your life... I hate being a victim of life (VOL)
How fast your life can be turned upside down.
How hard it is on my friends and family
How hard it is to get rid of.
How I have been treated by some family and friends. I'm not dead.
how it affects my children
How it can destroy everyone in its wake, if you let it.
how it can just pop up whenever in life and rule it
how it can take over your mind.
How it effects the people around me.
How it effects your family and friends
How it hurts soooo many people!
How it makes me feel physically and emotionally
How it puts the one's we love through hell.
How it rules my life and manipulates my emotions, also how I can't sing anymore
How it scares my kids
HOW IT SUCKS LIFE AND HOPE OUT OF PEOPLE
How it takes over your life
How it turns people's life upside down
How it's completely torn my entire life to pieces. So much to when I return a year or two from now, I wont be able to put it back together.
How its changed my life
how just the word messes with your mind
How many lives it can hurt
How many people it touches.
How much controll it has.
how much it still remains stigmatized, especially for anal cancer
How my illness caused my son pain.
How others perceive it.
How quickly it invades and takes over your body and spirit
How scary it is...
How some are not treatable
How stressed it makes my family.
how unpredictable it is
Hurt..And Death
Hurts people
I am always tired
I can't forget that it is with me every day
I can't seem to plan for the future
I cant hate it anymore
I don't hate the cancer, I hate that it took the cancer for me to begin living.
I don't know yet
I dont hate it anymore
I feel that precautionary chemo (side effects) has robbed me of a functional, normal life that I once had with family & friends!
I feel violated
I hate being on chemotherapy and my family suffuring along with me
I hate CANCER
I hate chemo
I hate everything about cancer.
I hate EVERYTHING about cancer.
I hate eveything about it equally.
I hate that cancer even exists.
I hate that I feel it controls my life. I have to be dependent on others, and I'm usually very independent. Also, it can be just plain scary.
I hate that it hurts so many people
I hate that my mom has had to suffer. My entire life she has been so strong and to see her at her in so much pain is just not fair!
I hate that the treatment is as bad as the disease
I hate the sense of loss of control over my own existence
I have it, my partner's had it, my dog died from it, and know I have it again (only different kind)
I have no control over it.
I have NO control!!!!!!!
I have no energy, the doctors all say something different
I have to change my unhealthy but comfortable lifestyle and the way people pity me and treat me differently
I let it take over my life. trying to change that........
I lost my beautiful hair
I MISS MY DAD.......AND THEIR IS A CURE!!!
I thought it was losing my hair now I don't know
I want my old life back.
I would like to squash it like a bug.
I'm newly dx my fear is not knowing what is yet to come....
I'm not able to do many things with my family
is that it alway take the once u love away and the pain that they go throu
It attacks every fiber of your being, SICK OF BEING SICK You lose control over your Life, Do as the Dr. says, your at his mercy.
It can kill us and it hurts.
IT CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE
it changes from day to day but the brain one scares me most
It comes back...sometimes
it destroys both people and there femilies
It does not discriminate; It's a mental battle as well physical
It doesn't care who or what you are
It effects my memory. My father was killed in a car wreck two years ago. He raised me on his own. Sadly, now I am forget so many great memories that we created together.
It effects so many that you love
It forces you to think about your life.
It happens to good people
It happens to good people, and it comes back sometimes..
It has destroyed our family!
It has stolen my vision of my future.
It has taken my husband's intellect and our special chemistry
It has taken my husband's personality and my sense of humor
it has taken time away from my daughter and ruined my self image
It has torn our family apart - & we let it.
It hurts people and many times our precious pets.
It is a lonely road.
It is a nightmare you can't wake up from
It is hard on the family - especially with teenage kids who want to have a normal family.
It is silent but can be deadly
It is taking my soulmate from me.
It is the first thing on my mind when I wake up in the morning.
It isn't welcome in my body!
It just plain sucks
it kills
It kills at random...without explanation, without mercy, and without regard to how beautiful, loving, or caring a victim can be...
It knocks you down when you think you are at your best
It makes my family cry.
It makes my loved ones cry.
It makes you doubt about any future in life
It makes you feel like something inside is dying.
it never lets you go
It only takes ,it never gives.
It robs, destroys, and demands to be killed or kill
it seems to affect the people that deserve it the least
it steals life!
It steals time, pride and faith.
It stops you before you ever realize it.
It takes you by surprise and no one is exempt from this party
It threatens to leave my children to grow up without their mother.
It took away 3 years of my life.....
It took my mom; The constant anxiety and fear of things beyond my control getting worse for my mom when she was alive.
It totally changed my life!
it tries its best to bring you down
It tries to control your life
It won't go away permanently
It won. Doctors don't incorporate a multi-disciplinary approach to treatment
It's a murderer
it's frightening.
It's just rude
It's not biased....
It's overwhelming.
It's ruthless
it's scary
It's silence and ugliness
It's so sneaky: absolutely no one is immune
It's taken too many friends of mine
It's taking my sister away.
It's the unwanted gift that keeps on giving
It's very existence
its aking me away from my babies
Its psychological and emotional grip on my family & friends
Its relentlessness
Its sneaky.
its sooooooooo common and unaware
its strikes when you least know it
Just a "pain in the ass"
Just diagnosed so all the unknown that makes the mind just roam places it shouldn't!
Just having it
Knowing that I lost my brother and then my dad to cancer. And haveing to watch my mom go through it again with yet another member of her family. I see her fear and keep telling her I am ok.
Lack of energy and extreme weakness
Leaving my daughter and Husband behind!
leaving my husband behind..
Lethargy
Living in Fear of it's return
living in limbo
Long term effects
loosing your hair =/
losing control of my body
Losing control of my life
Losing loved ones.
losing my breast and estrogen, that there is no cure, loss of sex drive
Losing my good memory
Losing my hair
Losing my hair and breast
losing my hair, my identity and the Chemobrain
losing my sight
losing the innocent assumption that i'll be alive for another seventy years
Loss of control and what it does to my love ones.
Loss of Control in Your Life-Having to depend on others
loss of control of my life
Loss of control of what I thought was normal.
Loss of strength and stamina
Lymphedema
Mainly its effect on me, but the trickle down
Missing the beautiful people that it took away in my life!
Mouth Sores
My 3 year old has to suffer...
my family having to deal with it
My family worred about me
My loved one sufer so much and I could not do anything on behalf of them
Neuropathy - I now walk with a walker and electric wheelchair
Never being able to take a normal BM
Non-productive time, time away from family and friends
Not being able to be active with my family.
Not being able to be normal
Not being able to do everything I used to do
Not being able to go back to work
not being able to take the pain away
not being able to work
Not Being In Control
not being in control-im a control freak
Not being in control. All of the red tape and doctor's appointments.
Not getting to see friends and family
Not having control
not in control
Not knowing
Not knowing how long I've had it!
Not knowing if treatment is working
not knowing if you are going to live past the next treatment
Not knowing the outcome
not knowing the outcome of treatments
Not knowing what is next, or what questions to ask
Not knowing whats going to happen next
Not only it's assault your spirit, but on those that love you.
Not sure yet, it's all still a black hole.
not understanding what is happening
Nothing
Now 1 out of 2....unless you do some preventative maintainence
Oh, everything
Our future is uncertain.
Overwhelming.
Pain
pain and the constant fighting to survive
People don't know how to talk to me anymore
people feeling sorry for me
People not being able to enjoy the things they used to enjoy...among 1000 other things.
People's reactions
Putting loved ones through the hurt and pain, not knowing the future!
robs my dignity
robs the energy from your body
Sad faces!
saps my energy
Scheduling my life around my treatments
Seeing kids with the disease.
Seeing my kids faces
Seeing the fear my teenage daughter tries to hide, and seeing others having to go through it
seems like too quickly it has become my identity
seriously
she hates losing her hair
Shitting in my bed and all over bathroom.
should i list just one thing????
side effects during and after
Silent Killer
so far? wearing the 5FU pump for 46 hours
stress
sucking my energy away from me
Surving is a full-time job.
Taken my freedom away
Taking friends away from us
Tears families apart and detroys hope
Telling my family
That a cure for ALL has not yet been achieved.
That a Cure has NOT BEEN FOUND !
That affects more than just me.
that cancer has a mind of its own, and how it loves to alter peoples lives.
That constant knot in your gut
That hospitals and clinics can add so much to the folks who are already suffering!
That I am allowing it to control my life.
That I cannot make it better, that I cannot make it go away. I must have help and the help may hurt me and perhaps may not help.
That I could have prevented it.
That I have it
that I have it, which means my children could get it, simply because they are genetically mine!
That I want to plan my future
That is steals the peace, hope and too often the lives of so many wonderful, sweet and giving people who don't deserve it.
That it can have a mind of it's own
that it could take years away from my life with the family I love so much
That it exists
That it happened to me.
That it happens to good people
that it has and continues to consume my hero, my friend, my mate
that it hurts a family
That it hurts everyone around it.......
That it is always in the back of your mind.
That it keeps me from my beloved children.
that it killed my father.
That it makes you so dependent on others for everyday things.
That it robbed me of my Family and my nephew of his Mother
That it scares the hell out of me
That it stole my Dad
That it stole my soul
THAT IT TAKES THE ONES I LOVE
That it took my Gemma and so many wonderful people.
That it took my Mother!
That it took my once healthy husband and destroyed him.
That it took my one true love, my Brent!
That it's so scary
That my family has to suffer through this with me.
That my mom doesn't laugh anymore.
That ovarian is called the "silent killer"...
That people pity/feel sad for me as apposed to trusting me and the strength I have to navigate this world.
That so many of us let it beat us.
that the ama leads us to believe they are they only way
That the treatment available in the United States is so debilitating and provides no cure.
That there is more questions than answer!!!
That there is no going back to BC (before cancer).
That treatment aged me quicker at least 10 years.
That what I used to think is every day is not any more
That your life is placed in someone else's hands.
the after effects
The black cloud over my head
The burden and worry it's caused for the people I love.
The Chemo
The cloud that hangs over you
The constant fear I'll have of it coming back and/or getting worse
The constant unknowns
The curve ball
The devestation
The Doctors
The Down Time, I am so ready to Rock Again!
The fact that I am no longer able to do the things I really love....
the fact that i can't punch it in the face.
The fact that I don't know what's going to happen next.
The fatique and weakness, plus the fear I might lose the battle before my grandchildren get older.
The Fear
The fear & pain in invokes
The fear and anxiety it's causing my family.
The fear and not knowing enough about what the results of therapy will be
The fear I see in the eyes of the people I love.
The fear it causes in me
The fear it instills
The fear of it returning...
The fear of it traveling thruout my body.
The fear of the unknown
The fear! And even though I have wonderful loving people to support me I still feel so incredibly alone sometimes!
The feeling of being fine mentally but trapped phsyically.
The feeling of invasion to my body
The feeling of it multiplying without my control.
The feeling that your life is getting sucked out of you
The helplessness you feel
the hopelesness in the begining
The hurt it brings to everyone and how it can be sneaky.
The little voice way in the back of your mind that says what if its back?
The look in my children's eyes......
The loss of control over my body
The name
The not knowing of what was going to happen next.
The not knowing.............
The not knowing;pain;head fog & falling down!
The Pain
The pain and fear on the faces of my loved ones.
the pain and running to the doctors.
The pain and suffering it brings
the pain and suffering it causes loved ones
The pain and tiredness.
The pain it is putting my mother through
the paperwork
The randomness of who it strikes.
the red bag
The shock the diagnosis and the wait for surgeries.
the side effects and feeling that life just isnt normal
The side effects during the therapy like hair loss, chemo brain, nausea and vomitting.
The side effects of the therapy
The stress associated with my mom having a life threatening disease that I can't do anything about!
The suffering it causes the person going through it.
the thought of leaving 3 children in this world, without a mom, and 2 without a dad
the thought of losing my mom..this isnt fair!!!!
The thoughts that invade and steal my life away.
The threat that it will take me from my children.
the time it is stealing
The time it takes away from me being with my beautiful twins!!
the time it takes to deterimine if a treatment will work
The toll that the therapy takes on the patient
The treatments
The treatments make you feel worse than the disease at times.
The uncertainty
the uncertainty and the limitations
The uncertainty of wether or not it is cured.
The underlining ignorance in Corporate America.
The Unknown
The unknown
the unknown of it, and the waiting in between appointments
The unknown, waiting for the results
The unknown. It's also made 2010 my least favorite year so far.
The unknown...
the unknowns
The violent way it has invaded my life
the waiting game dx 11/25/09 cant see surgeon until 12/15/09
The waiting, not knowing, length of time between appointments...
The waiting--appts., scans, etc.
THE WAY IT BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF ME
The way it changes one's life.
The way it changes your life in an instant
The way it has changed my ability to physically interact with my little boy.
The way it interrupts LIFE
The way it is creeps up on me and slaps me round the face when I least expect it.
The way it takes over your life and the uncertainty uncertainty that goes with it
The Way Leukemia Isolates Me From People
The ways it changes your family; continued sense of loss
The word
The word "cancer"
The word itself
the wounds,the war,the what ifs!
There is no cure
There is nothing that I like about cancer itself. I hope we find a cure and I pray it will be a kind one.
There's no guarantee cure.
There's not enough room
They tell you you can't have kids after chemo.
they way it changes a family for the worst
They way it sneaks up on you!
This is only the beginning-I will answer this question later
This type is not well known by the general medical community. By the time there is a noticable neck mass, it has already moved to stage 4.
to not be here for husband and kids
TO SEE A PERSON U CARE ABOUT SUFFERING
To watch people you love slowly deteriorate
too many things
Too many unkowns, seems like endless variables.
Trying to find the pony in the mounds of horseshit.
Uncertainty
uncertainty, waiting, and in my case, permanant reliance on medication (synthroid)
Unpredictable
waiting
Waiting for it to progress, there is nothing i can do yet.
WAITING FOR TEST RESULTS UNNECCESSARILY-learned that i csan pick up test result at medical records rather than wait for doctors
Waiting for test results!!
Was that I ignored the tumor for as long as I did.
watching how it destroys your body and weakens a person so much!
Watching it suck the life out of my mother
Watching my mother suffer and not being able to do anything about it
Watching someone wonderful suffering
Watching someone you love suffer.
watching the "Beast" gain momentum as my mother loses strength
Well meaning people telling me the horrors of their relative's side effects that I should get ready to experience
Well, I don't like to use the word "hate," but what's most difficult for me regarding cancer is the waiting -- for anything to do with treatment.
What I hate most about cancer is not knowing if it will return or not!
what it did to my family
What it does to ones body, and family,
What it is doing to me is beyond my control
What it is doing to my husband
what it's soing to my g/f and me, the in pack to her family and our future
what's not to hate
what's not to hate? Although at this point, I now see my leukemia as a blessing...but that took time.
whats NOT to hate LOL
whats there to like
When I see children with it.
When people we know die
Where did my life go?
wondering if it will come back
worry about a return or other cancer & lack of health insurance.
Worrying about it coming back!
Worrying about the people worrying about me.
You can't hide from it
You never feel Your body is rid of it
You... you still have to go to work?!
Your friends forget who you are and think only about the fact that you have cancer
Your life makes a complete 180 degree turn and nothing is the same after that.
~IT TAKES THE ONES WE LOVE SO MUCH~

What We hate about cancer - What Cancer Survivors said. Cancer Sucks!

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